I never seem to be quite up to it these days. What do I mean by it? Just about everything really. I eat because I have to but I sometimes feel like I'd just rather not. I do my best to keep up a cool, calm, and happy demeanor for the world but I find it harder and harder these days. Everything feels numb. My graphic novels and romance stories are my only escape anymore. My music helps sometimes too but I do so love when I can wrap myself up in a good romance novel and just forget the world around me that never seems to have happy endings...

I did some drawing the other day. Didn't come out too bad but I'm still uninspired to do any coherent drawing for my comic. Sigh. I wonder if I'm just losing my taste for art. I do know I no longer dream of a job at Disney or Pixar or anything of the sort. I don't even want to continue my art major as it is but I'm forced to at this point in my college career. God I'm a Junior already...What happened to my life? I feel as though I've been asleep since I graduated high school and am still groggily rolling over to continue my slumber.

I wonder, is anyone happy with their life anymore?

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Wow, last week was homecoming week and oh man...my sorority built a float for the parade so we had to do 12 hours worth of pomping. Not so bad but oh my god it was cold! I'm not ready for winter yet. But anyway, the theme was classic cartoon shows, and we got G.I. Joe. Yay. We won first place. Go us. We rock. That's now twice in two years of homecoming that we have won first place. Awesome job guys. Every single one of you from Delta Phi Epsilon, Chi Phi, Kappa Sigma, and Zeta Tau Alpha. Love you all.

So now that that is over, it's time to crack down and do some crazy shit studying for all sorts of midterms this week and next. I have a Ceramics midterm on Wednesday (that's tomorrow, I should be studying), Humanities Literature midterm on Thursday, Japanese Midterm and Journal due on Monday (10/13), Graphic Design Midterm project due on Tuesday (10/14), Meet with my Japanese teacher Wednesday (10/14) at 8:45am and oh, I think my ceramics project is due on Wednesday (10/14) too. Might by the following Monday though (10/20), I can't remember. Ugh. Too much shit to do.

I confessed some feelings yesterday, but I'm still waiting on a response. I don't know what will happen if he does accept them because we are a few hours from each other after all...but, who knows. I'm hoping for the best. I'll let you know. Later.

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Hello all.  It has been quite awhile has it not?  Sometime in May was the last time I posted.  I bet I promised more posting over the summer did I not?  Yeah...no doubt I did.  Well, that did not happen obviously due to the fact that I was working 40 hour weeks all summer and never really found time to jump on to my computer and post.  Or I never felt like it.  Meh.  Well let us see...what should I fill you all in with.  Let us see...

Over the summer I worked at Kmart.  Fun job.  Sorta.  After being there for about 1 or 2 months I was trained for Cash Cage which is the person who counts out the money for the registers everyday and keeps the store safe balanced.  It is actually not a bad job.  Hence why when the holidays come around and we go home for vacation, I will be returning to Kmart to work.  Whoo.

School started late August.  It is hard to believe that it is already almost October.  Where do the days go?

Ah, my friend's 21st birthday is on September 30.  So that will be fun.

School is going alright I suppose.  I am taking Japanese classes finally and I am doing well so far.  Humanities Lit is okay.  My teacher is a little strange, but nice.  I hate my art classes this semester.  Ceramics is just too much work and Intermediate Graphic Design...my teacher is just driving me mad.  But I guess it is just because I am so used to art teachers giving USEFUL feedback about thumbnails and partially completed projects that when he does not I get frustrated.  Sometimes I wonder why I ever chose to be an Art Major.  Ah!  But I do have an Asian studies minor now. Whoo whoo.  Oh, I also have this science class I have to take, right.  We have to take two lecture classes and one lab class, so I'm taking my second lecture this semester and oh man.  I thought, "I liked Dinosaurs when I was young.  This should be  fun class." but no.  It is not at all.  I think it might just be my teacher but I do not really know.  But, this Age of Dinosaurs class is going to pull down my GPA... Bah.

Alright.  I will shut up.  Bai.

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